December 2025

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Life has taken yet another unexpected turn. Hoping things get better over the holidays, I hope to pursue new music early next year.

October 2025

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It’s been challenging to engage with art in the same capacity that I used to be able to. For context, after releasing J’ai Vu L’ombre in September of 2024 I felt like I had “nothing left in the tank” so to say. I was originally hesitant to put out that album because I had released Requiems earlier in July of that year, and I was worried that it would be “too soon” to release another album. I’m glad I released it none the less, I think J’ai Vu L’ombre is one of my best albums, even though it didn’t get as much attention as my previous works. That along with the intense sense of burnout I felt after releasing it put me in a state of idling. I didn’t make music from September until January of 2025. That was a really hard time, I also went through a breakup and a hard semester at University, everything compiled together made me seriously consider if I was still capable of making art. Luckily I got out of the rut when I wrote, shot, and scored The Space Between Letters in December of 2024. Approaching my art through a new medium reinvigorated me and after releasing the film in February I felt an eerie sense of both content and confusion. 2025 really has not been “my year” so to say. There have been some highs like producing and recording No Days Off by Essence during the summer with two of my close friends, but otherwise I feel as if I’ve been bouncing my head off the wall, unsure of what I really want to do going forward. I’m planning to shoot another film in January of 2026, but right now I’m so busy with school and work I feel like I just can’t catch a break. I will be graduating early with two degrees in psychology and philosophy this time next year, I’m happy to have that out of the way, I just don’t know what to do until then. For so much of my life making music & art in general was a necessity for my mental health and well-being. But I feel as if nowadays I’m so caught up in everything that I don’t have time to process my emotions, I don’t find myself feeling as deeply anymore and I think because of that, the fact that I’m not making as much art isn’t that unsettling. But the fact that it isn’t unsettling is unsettling in and of itself. I’m so worried about money, paying rent, grades, love, and my health now and I just can’t be upset about not making art. I want to engage with art again like a child, I just don’t know if that means I should put my nose to the grindstone and force myself to make another album, or if I should take care of my immediate necessities and worries first and wait a while longer before trying again. I still love music more than anything in this world, maybe the answer is somewhere in the middle.

August 2024

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I’ve been working on a project for a couple months now. I was going to release it a while ago but it didn’t feel like the right thing to do until now. It will come out on September 1st. It’s an interesting project for me because It’s significantly longer than a lot of my other projects. Usually I try to stay somewhat concise with my work, but for this one it just felt right to let it be as it is and not try and censor or reduce the project to make it more accessible or friendly. It’s called “J’ai Vu L’ombre D’un Cocher Qui Avec L’ombre D’une Brosse Frottait L’ombre D’une Carrosse”. It doesn’t feel like an album to me, even though it is “technically speaking”. It feels a lot more like stream of consciousness, like a compilation, or an arrangement of feelings. It’s more abstract, and calling it just an “album” doesn’t feel like I’m doing it justice.