Wilting Diaspora
Released August 21, 2026
Tracklist
I. Susurration One
II. Ad Infinitum
III. Phantom Limb
IV. Homes You Can’t Visit
V. Indefinite Silences
VI. Hums
I know I’m only 20, but sometimes it feels like my life has already been wasted. Like there was a time frame, or a window, and I just happened to miss it. One of my biggest character flaws is how impatient I am. Sometimes I think like a toddler who just wants everything immediately. It doesn’t help that I keep myself so busy all the time, because then I start to worry even more when my efforts don’t meet my expectations. If I was lazy then I’d already know why my expectations wouldn’t be being met, but that is just not the case. I know I’m only 20, but sometimes I feel like I’m 40, like the way I want to live my life is so out of touch with people my age that sometimes it can be challenging to even converse with them, since we often lack a middle ground. So often I don’t even try, I just read, make music, go on walks, etc.. But then sometimes I get lonely, but I can’t understand why I wish to be recognized and validated by others that I sometimes struggle to understand. Maybe I’d feel better about this if I didn’t feel the need to always have an answer for everything. Maybe a middle aged version of myself is going to read this years from now and just see an angsty young adult. Maybe I just find comfort in imagining these ‘what if’ scenarios to continue avoiding questions. Maybe?
Owen Carswell 